My Michael....Goddess knows how I miss him..
I never have had that conventional sort of relationship most people have. I met a man online back in 98 or 99, a Michael L. Just leaving it at that.
My life has been for all sorts a very unusual one... and so was this relationship.
We met online, never exchanged any sexy pics, (hell I don't even have a photo of him except the one I have in my heart. ) That wasn't even a thing at that time, nor was catfishing. Anyway, Michael was a police man in Mitchell / Chamberlain sd area. He was a widower with 2 young children, and he was looking for his best friend/companion for life. I was still quite nieve about things like relationships, and had made a pledge to myself that I would not marry or date a man who degraded me. We talked for a couple years (felt like forever) we got on the chat every day at the same time, greeted each other affectionately. I fell head over heels for him, as I have a feeling he did as well. Every night when we closed out, we told each other we loved each other. He was even talking of moving to Lemmon..someday..if he could afford it. We asked after each other's family's welfare and if he had a hard day, I would comfort him the only way I could was to talk to him and let him vent. Well he went every wednesday night out with a bunch of the crew, and had some beer. I din't have a problem with that. But the last time we talked, this still tears at my heart, he called me a bitch for something I said. I told him that was it. I wouldn't let anyone treat me like that and I blocked him. I realized my mistake and unblocked him, but his email address was blocked to me. He had blocked me as well I think. I couldn't get through to him. Anyway, a week or so later I went up online to my fotki page and he had gone up to try and find a way to talk to me. He told me he thought I was a great artist, and that he would always hold a special place in his heart for me. OMG I miss this man, 20 years later almost, and my heart still longs for his. we fit. It just made sense. I did look him up and eventually after digging a bunch I found that he had remarried and lives in minnesota. :( I feel like this was the biggest mistake of my life..and there is nothing I can do. Goddess I hope to find him on the other side someday and be united again.
Gyp
My life has been for all sorts a very unusual one... and so was this relationship.
We met online, never exchanged any sexy pics, (hell I don't even have a photo of him except the one I have in my heart. ) That wasn't even a thing at that time, nor was catfishing. Anyway, Michael was a police man in Mitchell / Chamberlain sd area. He was a widower with 2 young children, and he was looking for his best friend/companion for life. I was still quite nieve about things like relationships, and had made a pledge to myself that I would not marry or date a man who degraded me. We talked for a couple years (felt like forever) we got on the chat every day at the same time, greeted each other affectionately. I fell head over heels for him, as I have a feeling he did as well. Every night when we closed out, we told each other we loved each other. He was even talking of moving to Lemmon..someday..if he could afford it. We asked after each other's family's welfare and if he had a hard day, I would comfort him the only way I could was to talk to him and let him vent. Well he went every wednesday night out with a bunch of the crew, and had some beer. I din't have a problem with that. But the last time we talked, this still tears at my heart, he called me a bitch for something I said. I told him that was it. I wouldn't let anyone treat me like that and I blocked him. I realized my mistake and unblocked him, but his email address was blocked to me. He had blocked me as well I think. I couldn't get through to him. Anyway, a week or so later I went up online to my fotki page and he had gone up to try and find a way to talk to me. He told me he thought I was a great artist, and that he would always hold a special place in his heart for me. OMG I miss this man, 20 years later almost, and my heart still longs for his. we fit. It just made sense. I did look him up and eventually after digging a bunch I found that he had remarried and lives in minnesota. :( I feel like this was the biggest mistake of my life..and there is nothing I can do. Goddess I hope to find him on the other side someday and be united again.
Gyp
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